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I will send you this, soon. - MJ Lee, it is going to be a long text. Bare with me. I am sorry in advance for saying this, especially now. I know that we never agree on saying goodbye to each other, I see that little things that we never saying goodbye to each other, instead we using words like "see you when I see you" "see you" "takecare" "stay safe" and never a goodbye words but I guess, phew I am using it now. Forever. Thank you MJ Lee, for everything. I am deciding to walk away from your life, if you consider I am a part of your life and yeah I guess, thank you :) I am glad with cross path back then but I kinda want to let it end here. I wish that your marriage day come one fine day and I hope you happy with the person that you chose to be with, forever. Give and take, that is the rule in marriage life. One more thing, I will not staying in JB this year. Around October 2026, I leave everything here. I am moving out from this JB city and live...

I texted him again, another love letter, I guess.  — MJ Lee, this going to be a love  letter or maybe a deep talk ones.  I think, I typed this kind of long ass text only to you and my blog space. I have blog anyway. I am so old school kind of girl, but who cares hehe that is how I express myself & no one read that blog anyway haha — I still remember the day I said goodbye to you. Those was in... damn when was that? haih, when sia. I deleted all my text with you here but I only have 1GB of memory mind. Fk. But I clearly remember those moment was chaotic to me. Oh! September '24 I guess. I still remember that day when I said I hate all men as they only seeing me as a girl that can help fulfill their lusty needs. Ending up I said I will blocked you and never talk to you ever again. You replied me that I can call you whenever I need you, and you wish me all the best.  To be honest, I wish I can run to you and kiss you as you damn sexy for saying those kind of words ...

I’ll fight for you I’ll fight for the both of us When your mind gets tired When you lose your senses And when your shoulders can no longer carry the burden I’ll carry them for you But if ever one day your heart’s no longer tied to mine When where we stand are books apart I’ll say my goodbye and never look back

I texted him on whatsapp. I like this kind of feelings. Indeed it makes me alive. Lord. - I know I shouldn't unblock you here only to text you this long text cus apparently I couldn't send long text in normal text.  Please bare with me cus, as soon as I woke up from the dream, I am texting you this. Half awake. I might spill a lot of sugar here cus that is how I am. Too much sweetness. Huh. I missed you so much. You can read until here cus it is going to be a love letter. I missed you so much till I dreamt about you twice. I am not normal at this point, but it is nothing wild. Normal dreams and I wish it will stay like this for a couple of more days. Am I greedy? Tak lah I pretty je.  It is you in the dream but we are too far away from each other. It seems like, I am seeing you from a 'stranger' point of view. You were with your friends, but I was like a block away from you but we did seeing each other, and we smiled.  Another moment where, I am applauding to you while...

Hi, it is me, the helpless one. I am back with the same thoughts. I should run. I wanted to write down my plans here, but you know, I will share it here since no one around me read this. I wanted to run, but what is my plan, ya? I will leave everything behind, but I will have my social media stay for awhile. I know it is haram for a wife to leave his husband without husband's permissions, but I have too much to keep on my plate now. I know for a fact that if I leave everything here, it will be so chaotic and everyone literally will reach me out. First, I will ignored. Until I have enough money to pay lawyer to file a suit. After that, we will both attend the court, to settle. If he asking me why I am doing things like this, well, I already asked for couple times already, but still no changes. He need to know, love can't feed my starve tummy, love can't guarantee our future. I am not marrying to a wrong people, he is losing in his battle. I don't want to expose much to t...