Another love letter, maybe.

I texted him again, another love letter, I guess. 

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MJ Lee, this going to be a love letter or maybe a deep talk ones. 

I think, I typed this kind of long ass text only to you and my blog space. I have blog anyway. I am so old school kind of girl, but who cares hehe that is how I express myself & no one read that blog anyway haha

— I still remember the day I said goodbye to you. Those was in... damn when was that? haih, when sia. I deleted all my text with you here but I only have 1GB of memory mind. Fk. But I clearly remember those moment was chaotic to me. Oh! September '24 I guess.

I still remember that day when I said I hate all men as they only seeing me as a girl that can help fulfill their lusty needs. Ending up I said I will blocked you and never talk to you ever again. You replied me that I can call you whenever I need you, and you wish me all the best. 

To be honest, I wish I can run to you and kiss you as you damn sexy for saying those kind of words explain whatever is happening & how I feel about those situations but I am so used to pent up all things, so ending up I shut people off instead. 

But eventually, I still contacting you because of work and never more. I blocked you eventually, till I couldn't ignore that you are always in the corner of my mind. Guilty came saying that I shouldn't texted you with whatever stupid text and treat you with ridiculousness behaviour of mine at that moment. 

Hence, fast forward, I texted you back and saying that I will ciao from previous place. I passed you a gift and you did asked me why I bought stuff for you, and I said "don't bother to ask"

the next time we met in July '25, same thing, I passed you a gift and you did asked me why I bought you stuff, and I said it was my love gesture. 

It is actually, my apologies from me to you as I am being such a selfish human being that moment and I am not used to say sorry face to face. 

Instead, I buy gifts and give it to you in order to ease the guilty that I had. A little bit spoiler, I bought a new gift already for you and I will pass it to you the next time we meet. 

I think that gift going to be the last one as I explained everything of my guilty here and hopefully, I can die in peace as there is no more guilty inside me haha

MJ Lee, thank you for reading till here. I know you hate it when you need to read this looooooong text, but yeeeeeeeeeee atleast, I can die in peace like I said before. 

Rest well, takecare. Till the next time we meet again, I will keep your gift really well x

If you ask me deep down, I still sayang you gila gila okay? Macam I cakap lah, biarlah I yang gila sorang sorang, you stay sane x

haha! kalau you reject I awal awal, kan dah tak payah nak baca text panjang macam ni :p it's not too late also if you want to reject me, I am so okay with it (:

sincerely,

the crazy mao, yuyu.

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till next time, you.